Oct
29
I was 19 and had been living in New York for a little over a year. It was technically my second Halloween in the city but since the first Halloween had been right after 9/11, this might as well have been my first Halloween. I was too self conscious to really dress up too crazy; I needed a costume but I still really wanted to look cute and fuckable. I ended up settling on wearing some sort of military jacket and a yarmulke that I had lying around from some bar mitzvah I had attended years ago. I added some swastikas to the jacket and said I was a Jewish Nazi. I’m still not sure why anything about this outfit made sense to me at the time. I mean, I’m not even Jewish. Probably I felt comfortable with the look because it made me look cute in a generic enough way that I could imagine a wide range of men finding me attractive and unthreatening. Also, there’s something pathetic enough about the costume that it was just maybe adorable.
1) Nazis as cute/unthreatening. Speaks for itself.
2) Another bit of evidence for the interest-in-Nazis queer subculture; what is the attraction? Just the uniforms?